Was tired today, was only able to do 4h work. I set up the Jaynes study guide and spent 2h doing exercises, got upset at how bad I am. I must practice and become stronger

Read lots of unsong (4 hours). "The broadcast" emotionally screwed me up a little, and the comet king helped my drive.

I require my ethics be spatially and temporally invariant. In normal language, it should not matter who you save or when, a life is a life, suffering is suffering. Like our physical intuition must be extended with math and logic to handle growing applications, our moral intuition must also be augmented.

I'm so inadequate! I need to become stronger, to have power and fail to use it is something only a fool would do.

Given I'm awake/not in bed ~15 hours it's ludicrous I'm only working ~8h on average. An ideal day looks something like

• 6am Wake, exercise, run, shower, Anki
• 7am-7pm Study (and take breaks), I can push dinner back to 7 saving more time
• 7-8pm Eat and journal then get off pc
• 8-9pm Reading then bed

If I maintain an elite schedule for a few weeks straight it'll become a habit. I just need to overcome this plateau.

What could stop me from achieving this schedule? Main threats are

• Physical exhaustion / ego depletion (i.e. last few days)
  • Eat well (no chips/carbs and not too much)
  • Go to sleep early (get off computer at 8pm for margin)
  • Take naps if tired
  • Do lower-effort work if tired (e.g. watching lectures or programming as opposed to solving math problems)
• Family / chores
  • Costs ~1h/day average max, should not stop me
• Social events
  • Soon heart ends, then I won't have any social events and can focus on working. (I'll probably have to start some to maintain mental health, but I can get a streak of a few weeks first to build the habit)
• Distractions
  • Hide from physical distractions with loud music / whitenoise